Falling off the wagon

eww and aww. It is both gross and depressing that I have failed and fallen off the wagon sooo quick!! I have been very good about my porportions and eating choices, sometimes, but it is hard to always keep track of it. Even though it's easy as hell since it's an application on my phone.

But after my 7th failed attempt doing a Century, it was really easy for me to derail from my progress. Then after the Century there was Disneyland Fun with some awesome ladies.

Resting from my epic yet tragic weekend took 2 days. *sigh*

My life has been impacted tremendously by fundraising for the AIDS LIFECYCLE. It is a hard time and even harder asking for moniez. So let me just blurp it on here real quick I'll write a real post about it later, when I have time and am not at work..

In less than 8 weeks I shall be riding my bike 545 miles from S.F. to L.A. to raise awareness and fundz for people living with HIV/AIDS.

In order for me to participate at this event I must raise a minimum of $3,000 and 10% in for my goal.. So make yourself a sandwich for lunch, and donate what you were going to spend here

Thanks

My nephew's Birthday party is this weekend and this week has been focused on that. I really tried going to the gym last night, but when picked up from the bus stop, I was held hostage to make some last minute runs to the store, when I just wanted to go home, eat dinner, rest a bit, then hit the gym like before. *sigh*

So here I am eating right and counting as much calories possible, but not working out as much as I'd like. After Pirate Party/Easter Weekend I plan on getting back on my stationary steed and spin as much as possible.

Here is to wishful thinking.

Spin, Spin Sugar.

Using my old gym membership that I have had for two years now, I went ahead and looked up the schedule for spinning classes, which I really feared since I heard they were ridiculous hard. 

Mon: 4:45pm- 5:45pm 

Wed: 4:45pm- 5-45pm 

 Sat:  8:15am-  9:15am

Seeing that the Monday or Wednesday options were impossible since I get out of work at 4:30pm monday - friday, I decided to try out the Saturday morning class since I stayed in Anaheim this weekend. 

The night before my spinning class I was terrified of what would come out of it. I have heard some stories of how difficult they were, and was intimidated seeing how it would be my first class with an instructor. I hate waking up early on weekends, but I was up and ready for my class. Class was at 8:15am and I was there locking up my bike at 8:10 thinking I was running a bit late, I get to the studio and the lights were out... umm where's my instructor?? NO ONE KNEW!! 

Frustrated as hell, I wait... Finally around 8:25am my instructor shows up, she doesn't look happy to be there. I wouldn't be happy either if I were walking around with PINK EYE... eww.. but she promised to stay away from everyone and everything, which I thought was fair enough, everyone being myself, man in his 40's, and the pink eye infested instructor.

Spinning can be fun with an instructor.. when she decided to instruct, that is. My instructor was telling the world about how she got pink eye, and the other guy in the class wasn't even paying attention to what she was instructing, 1/2 way through he gave up and walked away. 

People slowly starting coming in for the following class which was yoga, an older man came in and just started talking to us. He was very sweet and was telling us he was a 5x CANCER SURVIVOR. His doctors had told him that the reasons he kept beating it was because he was very active and always watched what he ate. 

He continued on telling me that he liked my smile and was impressed that I was spinning as fast as I was and was not out of breath. After my class he came up to me and told me that more girls should be like myself, that being a "full figured girl" was okay if I had a positive attitude such as I did. I had to giggle a little, because this is exactly what I was doing, this is the message that I am trying to get across, and he had no idea. 

The Start of week 1: The Secret.

When I first decided to do this, I really didn't think that I was going to post it over the Internet, and let people know what my plans were, since originally they were sinister.
But after much thought I decided why not, it help me by venting out any frustrations I have, my progress and other such things.

Where to start.. Well if you know me, for a long period of time or just met, I have never been thin my whole life. I really don't think I was built that way, and I have always accepted my body for what it is...ROUND, curvy, fat. I have dated boys that have liked it, some that didn't but dragged me along on a relationship for the hell of it (but let's not get into that.) Sure I have problems getting into cute trendy clothes but in all honesty It has never really bothered me.

Now I am 24, 235lbs.. yup this is how much I weigh.. at an outstanding height of 5'3", pink hair, olive skin, and brown eyes. This is who I am and really enjoy it.

So let me guess you are saying if you are happy the way you are, why change??

Well if you noticed the title of my blog is "Getting FIT to prove you wrong" not Getting Skinny/thin to prove you wrong.. So with that, this is what I'm trying to do. My muscle mass is large, I am a very muscular person, I would like to tone myself up to make my cycling adventures more fun and not so much of a work out. In all honesty I don't think my gut is going anywhere. This is why I never really cared about how much I weighed, because weight is really just a number, like age.

So where does the prove you wrong come from??

Well this is where the sinister part comes from. I am around women my age all the time, and let me tell you some of these girls have image issues. They really have a hard time accepting there bodies for the way they are. Did I mention that these girls have better bodies than I do.. See I'm a cyclist and our outfits for performance aren't the most flattering. Tight Spandex... not FTW.. But it works and when your riding your bike up and down hills for miles it doesn't really matter. Some ladies wear things over there spandex to "cover up" there awesome bodies, and this makes me sad. They are always on Diets, to get thin, they want to be skinny.. but in all honesty they are looking at things the wrong way.

DON'T GET SKINNY, GET FIT!! Work with your body and grasp what you have!

So I am trying to get as fit as I can be, watch what I eat, and enjoy life. Because I am not a rabbit and will not settle for carrot sticks for lunch, although carrot sticks are quite yummy. ;)

How am I doing this?

Lance Armstrong wants to save everyone, I swear! He actually has a FREE calorie tracker online called The Daily Plate.

Biggest list of food ever, and big list of working out too. enter cycling and theres tons of options. It is quite awesome.

So with this, my gym membership that I've had forever, and my bike, 

I will Succeed!